Online Poker Losses: £1,000

Overview
Kaboom! £1,000 added to my online Poker account. Played some high stakes; with no bankroll management. Lost the lot in under 5 minutes! Totally gutted!


Venue: Online
Buy in: £1,000
Session: 10:30 - 10:35
Duration: 5 minutes
Lost: £1,000
Profit per hour: -£1,000

Online Poker Losses: £250

Overview
Added another £250 into my Online Poker, which subsequently dwindled down to a balance of 'nothing', over a period of 12 hours.


Venue: Online
Buy in: £250
Session: 18:00 - 06:00
Duration: 12 hours
Lost: £250
Profit per hour: -£20

Online Poker Losses: £500

Overview
Loaded £500 into my Online Poker account and spent a couple of days spiralling downwards. Ended up losing all my original buy in. I played at stakes that were too high and I was far too aggressive with my poker chips.


Venue: Online
Buy in: £500
Session: Not Logged
Duration: Not Logged
Lost: £500
Profit per hour: Not Logged

Live Poker Losses: £200

OverviewNormally my girlfriend hangs on to all my credit and debit cards, but today was an exception; I needed to pay my balance and my card came along for the ride. The payment resulted in delaying a couple of big guys from visiting my home, brandishing a baseball bat swinging it in my direction, while demanding their money back. However unfortunately the temptation of a gamble was too great and

Live Poker Losses: £50

Overview
My best recovery to date, was abstaining for a total of 140 days approx. 4 and a half months, beating my previous best by one and a half months. Having relapsed, all of that good work can seem like a distant memory, but I must not forget that my recovery is not cyclical but in fact a spiral leading upwards and having relapsed I may have temporarily slipped back down, but I do not lose

Live Poker Losses: £50

Venue: Live
Buy in £50
Session: 18:00 - 18:40
Duration: 40 minutes
Lost: -£50
Profit per hour: -£50


Summary
Held AK and had the best hand on flop, and turn, with two pair, Kings and 9s. Villain managed to hit his straight by the river as he flipped over 10-8 on a K9976 board. So annoyed with this bad beat, Felt deflated, disappointed, annoyed and frustrated; basically extremely angry with

Online Poker Losses: £400 Fuck Poker Stars!

Overview
Fuck Poker Stars! Yes That's right! Played on mobile device at Poker Stars, ending up self-excluding for life. I am not the only poker playing seeing this Poker scam for what it really is i.e. a scam! Take a look at the website Fuck Pokerstars and all the people claiming that Online Poker, including Poker Stars is nothing but a Poker Scam!


Venue: Online
Buy in: £400
Session: 17:30 - 22

Live Poker Losses: £50

Overview
Only had £50 to my name and without a win in sight from this session, I soon had nothing!


Venue: LiveBuy in: £50Session: 10:30 - 10:50 a.m.Duration: 20 minsLost: £50Profit per hour: -£50

Summary

First hand Q9, playable but folded; going to war with only my premium hands today


Second hand, folded K7, weak unplayable hand


Third hand, dealt Aces, raised the limpers from medium

Today was a bad day: Donking a couple of hundred online

I downloaded the Poker Client in preparation for the tournament; bad mistake. Now poker is once again available 24 hours a day 7 days a week! I deposited £200. I played for too long and like a donkey; chips rarely feel like money and in the world of online poker cash is just a bunch of digits; but that's not true currency is currency regardless of how it is represented and even so that is no

Today was a bad day: Second Self Exclusion from a Poker Casino

After having recently self excluded from a Poker Casino, less than 24 hours later and I was at another casino playing poker with a short stack strategy. No rules just minimum buy in costing £50. No rules means no ability to make a decision to self exclude right?

I managed to triple up but then over a period of time lost this and even more in buy ins. The only thing that stopped me from

Today was a bad day: First Self Exclusion from a Poker Casino

So, here I am again, deep in the world of Poker. I am so tired right now I could literally fall asleep for two days. I am stressed, over worked and under nourished yet I am compelled to gamble.

I realised something important about my gambling, I think I previously played to lose; sounds strange I know, but losing the money is like a release it seems to be a destressor and so I would make less

Poking fun at a Pair of Queens at the poker table

Today was such a busy day, but despite my mind being preoccupied with a hundred and one things I needed to do, there was still room for fleeting thoughts about gambling. I became preoccupied about poker ranges and how the other night I lost a huge pot with a premium hand: QQ against AA and AK.

I re-evaluated my play and considered a different strategy considering all the possibilities in terms

Live Online Poker Losses: £650

Overview
I relapsed! Last time I abstained from gambling i.e. playing poker for over three months but this time my abstinence was for just over 7 days. I question: "Do addicts really need to hit rock bottom before they can recover?"



Venue: Online
Deposited: £650
Type: Cash & Tournaments
Session: 19:30 - 3:00 a.m.
Duration: 8 hours
Lost: £650
Profit per hour: -£81.25




Summary
Despite being

Live Poker Losses: £55 (Tournament)

Overview
I had not gambled for 11 days, but temptation got the better of me and I ended up buying in to a tournament, which I subsequently lost. Note how my musings yesterday meant nothing to my addiction. It is because of this I will always be honest with my struggle to quit poker even if I relapse a thousand times, this account will be my life long dedication of pain and suffering but hopefully